4 March 2009

The song that tormented me for most of my short life, and few other things of some consequence

The song you are listening to is a song that tormented me for several years. I remember as a child, listening to this song being played every Friday in a open air theater near my house. For several unfortunate reasons it reveals several scars that should have not been there. At the end I do not feel exhausted, for I never felt drained at the end of the song. This song has a very positive feel in my heart.

It says 'I am an angel, do not touch me, I have come from the stars, do not touch me.'

I do not see any obvious reasons that should make me feel good about listening to this song, but nevertheless I do. I have searched for several years to find this song. I practically drove my brother crazy asking him to find this song. And as luck would have it I found it one fine afternoon on the net. I don't know how in shall make you feel. I do not expect any extraordinary reactions, but I still like listening to it.

Often it the garden we find sweet fruits with bitter seeds. What would we do in we found bitter fruits with sweet seeds. I am not sure. If I ever find the answer, I am sure that it shall have something to do with this song and what it means to me.

By the way I have had a eventful weekend, at least by my standards. I visited my uncle and his family. I literally socialised my ass off. I haven't got much far ahead with Proust. I am afraid there has been no change in the depression. I am still waiting to feel better. That is probably a positive sign because at my worst I don't ever expect to feel better.

That's about it then.

Yaaaahooooo......
(The Shammi Kapoor one , not the Internet company)

2 comments:

  1. The song feels sweet and swirling. And it has an innocent feel to it - much like childhood.

    May sweet angels lift the burden on you.

    I like your honesty about depression. I don't know very much about clinical depression so I hope I don't sound too cliched. Sometimes I'm just such an optimist that i can't help saying - things will definitely get better for you. Life is fluid and constantly changing. Trust in that.

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